one bitten twice shy

would u buy a tyre for rm295. and make that two..

i just did!

just watched a korean movie aired on 8TV's titled 'a millionaire's first love'. it was good. and i weep there and then. feels good tough. tapi tak boleh la selalu. nanti jadi pondan!

sorry guys. no entry for raya. nothing much interesting to jot here. pretty much the same with my life. anxiously waiting for third of december to start my new career at Miyazu. submitted my resignation letter on last friday.

feels like going for a vacation. but where should i go? nowadays, malaysian can say space's the limit ;)

this one don't have a title

raya is just around the corner. this is the first time ever.. i mean EVER i had not indulge myself into any kind of shopping for the purpose of raya. i don't have any money left to spend. altough i have a few k's in the account i really had to restrain myself to use for shopping and what's not. few days back i just forked nearly a K for the renewal of rod tax & insurance for my lovely car. my tyres dah botak also, that needs money. i have yet to pay for the car installment. owh, not forgetting my life insurance premium. and the credit cards. and yes, the study fees. ohhh, with huge paychecks comes huge bills to pay. i wish life was more carefree..

kelabu asap

greeting fellow bloggers. this is one hell-of-entry yg for sure akan merapu. so please fasten ur seatbelt and drive safely. **wtf** haha

ok,let's begin with my master's degree punya cerita. so,one fine day someday in sept there i was in UKM campus KL branch nak pegi register la. i dressed up gila mcm nak pegi club pon ader. the mindset was like when i registered 7 yrs ago for my bachelor's degree program. the reality..woaaah everybody else came with their suka hati attire. so the least i can do was to loose the tie. no wonder there aint any dress code stated in the offer latter. i think tis is the way an executive aka part time master's program was all about. since most of the students are either a senior exec or a manager. seriously guys, on that day most of them are like ur father mother. at least i guess was 35 n above. and mind u, no hot chix. none existence. nada. yillek. tak ble blah

when the director addressed his speech. time tu la i baru tau yg UKM was built solely on people's money,blood,tears. with none what so ever any help from the then government. dlm hatiku i was so farking proud man. tp as you know..over the years. the spirit dah x mcm dulu la. officially ukm now is a fully government of Boleh Land's property. hahaha

a week after that. there i was in ukm bangi ready for my 1st class.so this time mindset dah tukar,dressed accordingly. tgk kitab undang2 ukm. ok jeans,collar tee,sneakers je. whatdauknow, yg lain pon mcm tu. ha ha. the class consist of 27 with 3 girls and the rest u know lah. most are senior exec, even manager pon ade, only a few la yg fresh mcm aku. and the best part, most are in BIG companies. petronas carigali, alstom powers, u name it. tak hairan la since the course was relating to occupational health and safety. in my mind, cantek la ni. kabel optik terbesar la in future. the best part of that day.. was the speech from the programme's director

this prof mmg sgt masyur la dlm bidang safety. prof dr ismail bahari. i think anyone whose work are inline with OSH will surely know him. the speech.. bla,bla,bla. tp the best part yg catched my ears was. he said "u guys are the selected few. out of so many applications which we had to tapis 3 kali" and "please,i like to remind all of u. u're not here to be trained as a safety officer. u can do that at niosh will rm 5k. u're here to be trained as a safety managers. keep that in mind. and make sure u all complete the programme in 3 semester. tak boleh lebih" sort of la. mana nak ingat details kan. another boiling point is. passing mark was B. any below than that. i need to re-sit the paper. gila beb. mcm ni sure dean list!

last week sudah complete 2 minggu kuliah. a big sacrifice to my weekend's life. but nothing to compare with a few of my classmate. ade yg penang, kerteh, skudai. lagi gila. tinggal anak bini. kos perjalanan since they're are driving. tak kesah la kot since aku survey in general their salary are like rm4k minimum. aku je yg kecik. the tak best part being in a senior class ialah aku kena jadi ketua class lah. since alasan aku kurang komitmen la, itula, inila. fine,i accepted w/pun berat tu
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ni lain entry. malas nak buka new topic

while i was driving this afternoon. got a call from a complete strangers. a girl. she said she salah share credit with me. i said lemme check 1st. will call later. checked. mmg takde sapa pon share credit. dah le rm5 je. dlm ati kata ni ape la miskin sgt. 5 ringgit pon berkira. text her to give me the share instruction, aku mana la reti. x penah share. biase gi kedai je beli topup. aku tau minah ni tipu. ingat aku tak tau ke. takpe la. share juga la rm5 free kat dia. aku kena cas 5 posen siot. haha. dlm minda ku yg jahat.. haa..siap la kau pompuan. jadi stok mengonek la ni >;D

lepas tu text3. nk knal la juga sapa kan. bukan free rm5 tu. ha ha. said she's 22. keje pd. asal somewherelse. pastu aku malas la nak layan. then mlm dia text. aku layan kan je la. minta ym,frenster,myspace. sombong, x kasi. minta aku punya, i said ok.nanti add. tutup cerita

rentetan to that text. aku end up kat myspace. gila berkurun aku tak buka. well, i've heard bout the panas thingy psl myspace. but now baru perasan. compared to frenster. ppl are more tutup. but kat myspace ni, dah mcm trend pulak. post gambar sexiness pastu suruh org komen. kena romen baru tau!

i'm not a good samaritan to say this trend is bad. i admit, the girls are hawwtt. but fikir dengan akal yg waras. we are the future leaders of Boleh Land. kalau mcm ni mmg akan bungkus la. well,mmg ade minoriti yg "baik" but the majority stands out more. i wonder how 100th merdeka celebration will be. my 2 cents. no pun intended

ps - really. time flies faster this time around. 10 days to raya already. i want to post a raya song, soon ;)

estudiente

just finished watching my feveret tv series. csi back to back on channel 17 astro. this one thing that i'm really good at. lazying myself in front of the box just watching one channel after another. it just happens that in the middle of the plot, one guy said.. "when one door closed, another one opens". how true is that

a couple of days ago, i got a call which really surprises me. it was regarding my application for postgraduate studies. it was my second attempt after a frustrating denial with UiTM. the reason being i was rejected, the faculty just don't take an ex student from another faculty. how bullshit was that. that was then. let's just forget about it. their U aren't that great isn't it. he eh he eh

back to the call. the lady ask me to drop by her office which is at UKM to take the offer letter. i was really delighted with the news. gawd knows how frustrating i were, while waiting for the results. at some point i thought of giving up. which i did. but now i have all the reason in the world to be happy. but not for long. since i need to figure out where i can source the money for my studies. i just forked out a good 3k for merely 50% of the 1st semester's fees. now where would i fork the rest of 4k huh? headache. that was just for the 1st semester. the total was a whopping 18.8k for a trimester. might settle for a part time gigolo i guess. lol

starting this month, i need to ikat perut. so many bills to pay. the cars need a fix in a few days. the road tax and insurance will expires next month. farkkk. this is why i hate being a working adult. life as a student was more carefree back then. i wonder how mr capang is doing in Liverpool. g'day mate. hope u're having fun there if u happens to read this ;)

my classes will start next weekend. it's an executive intake. so the classes are schedule on weekend only. 2-6 on sat while 8-6 on sun. sure die one. lol. how i wish i was a full time postgraduate student in Ireland. i could bonk an irish then. ha ha ha

well mate, cheers for me. hope i will make it this time around. i want to score a decent cgpa :) a dean list for trimester would be the best.

keyboard off ~kaput~

where the heart is

this is one post which i've been holding back way too long. u guess. me love. yes. quiet easy isn't it. the scenario is.. i'm 25. but sadly, still single. no, i don't have any problem with that.ha ha.self denial. the problem is, my surroundings. imagine urself as the eldest son in the family. then again, the eldest grandson. two of my elder sister is married which makes me the most eligible bachelor's. the most disheartening moment is whenever a family gathering is held, the one question which will popup from each and every single mouth of my aunties is..kamu bila lagi? damn. and every time i will answer with a crooked smile without fail. ha ha ha

one thing which makes me wonder. i tried to be honest most of the time saying.. btol la makciks, belom ada calon. makciks tolong la carikan.. but my aunties wouldn't believe me. they always replies sumthing like this.. jangan tipu lah, muka macam kamu ni takdak calon. entah-entah dah keliling pinggang, tu yg susah nak pilih. huh, how i wish that was soo true. and i will burst into laughter. and quickly change the topic

but now i just realize how empty my heart was. i need a girlfriend. a Love. pronto

i'm now on a quest of soul searching for the other half of me, as they say, Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit

thou shalt not

ever heard a saying which reads one thing led to another. either good or bad. but in my case, it's the latter. all it takes was one bad judgments. greed & lust. a very bad combination. and the rest as they say, is history

merely a year ago. i was a different person. a good one. but now, i really dunno what i've become. i have no one else to blame but me. but the worst part is, i don't felt guilty doing many kinds of wrongdoings. no regret. not once

i really wish i could turn back time. and be the good 'ol me once again

whatdayaknow

i write what i want, when i want. d'oh

here i am after a long hiatus. too many stories which i want to share with any unfortunate reader visiting this blogs. what the hell. both my fingers & mind are currently too rustic to write. blame it on more than a year not reading any academics stuff nor fiction novels.

and my mind failed me again. indeed! let's try it in malay pulak lah.

gagal juga.

anyway, i'll try to make this a 1st step to the wonderful world of blogging. again! best of luck to meself ;)

credits to the original author & shah-azz =)

this one is dedicated to someone dear to my heart. ****, if u happens to cross my blog, it's for u

(poem by Minuk Choi)

For you,
I would gladly walk a mile,
if that would give me a chance
to see you smile.

I'd call you my friend,
but that's a lie.
You mean more to me,
but I can't explain why.

For you are more precious to me
than all of the world's gold,
but I can't tell you that,
how can I be that bold?

If I spoke what's on my mind,
would you accept me?
Because without you,
I don't know where I'd be.

You seem to be calm,
while I feel absolutely lost.
I would like to be so bold,
but what would its failure cost?

Am I the only one faced with this choice?
Be daring and risk losing you as a friend too?
I can't risk that; I'd rather have that then lose everything.
What should I do?

cum-back!

alrighty then, my 4th blog if i'm not mistaken. suka-suka je write-off eh =)

this one is for jubilating my 25th anniversary. sambutan jubli perak.

y'all sing with me.. happy birthday to uuuu. happy birthday to meee. cheers

i'll post a-self-biography later. till next time